August 3, 2012
Dear God,
If I would have all this world's goods I would have very little
of You in my life, because having much seems to place You in
the far corner.
I have nothing but a few trinkets and somehow I seem to treasure them.
What is even sadder.....I seem to admire and long for the pretty decorations
that can be used to decorate and and give that homely look.
I look at "my own art, talents" and wonder why You aren't using them.
Even more.I rebel and keep asking You "why can't I bring in money by
my 'talents' to use the money to give back to missions?"
But God, there seems to be the idea that I am to encourage the faint
hearted...which I am myself.
August 30, 2012
God, I want to be in awe of Your dealings in my life like the marvelous
things You've done with my giving diary.
I would like a fine finished house I can decorate and be able to then occupy
my time with poetry and photos, but I don't want to "strive" for a finished
house. But having one would take away a "lot of stress in 'trying to aim'
towards even just having a finished home."
But anyway, lately I've been "thirsting." But for what?
I've identified myself so much with FEBC. I hate not giving to it. Has it been
2 years that I've not given to that organization? But can I still trust them with my
gifts?
God, what are my desires towards You?
Ps 37:4 - Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of
thine heart.
Today I read yesterday's date in the devotional book Springs in the Valley:
":What is in thine hand? Is it a hoe, a needle, a broom? A pen or a sword? A
ledger or a school book? A telegraphy instrument?.....Whatever it is, give
it to God in loving service.?
I found myself the last couple of days thinking of "open thy mouth wide and I will
fill it." Psalms 81:10
Today I turned to Psalms 126 and reminded God that after I had first heard
that FEBC was going to do something with my diary I flung open my Bible
and my finger landed on Psalms 126.
Ps 126:1-6 - When the LORD turned again the captivity of Zion, we were like them
that dream. Then was our mouth filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing: then
said they among the heathen, The LORD hath done great things for them. The LORD
hath done great things for us; whereof we are glad. Turn again our captivity, O LORD,
as the streams in the south. They that sow in tears shall reap in joy. He that goeth forth
and weepeth, bearing precious seed, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing
his sheaves with him.
Today I told God again I wanted to be in awe of His dealings. I cannot open doors
on photography. I have so little to give to missions. Only He, God, can do what is
needed.
I zeroed in on Psalms 126:2 - Then was our mouth filled with laughter.....
It is my duty to "open wide" and God's duty to fill it. Psalms 81 & 126.
Of course my mouth it to be filled with praised, thanksgivings of God and unto God.
But then there are the times which God does the longing for the mouth to be opened
to Him and then it is His hand that creates the reasons for our mouth to be filled with
laughter.....
God, help me to pray with my mouth open so then I can be as one that has been in a
dream and that my mouth has been filled with laughter.
Ps 28:2 - Hear the voice of my supplications, when I cry unto thee, when I lift up my
hands toward thy holy oracle.
Ps 28:6 - Blessed be the LORD, because he hath heard the voice of my supplications.
I Jn 5:14-15 - And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing
according to his will, he heareth us: And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask,
we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.
O God, please let my photography bring in money for missions and for living expenses.
O God, please open the doors which only You can open for me.
Amen.
